Well folks…here we have it. The top of the staircase we’ve been climbing astrologically since January 2020: The total lunar eclipse in Scorpio. This is the break-through-to-the-next-phase or the fall-down-a-flight-of-stairs moment. Don’t worry, if you’ve been stumbling down trigger after trigger since last week or find yourself in this minefield of sticky ego sores…we get to get right back up and try again. My last two weeks have been extremely uncomfortable. A whole lot of humanity is about to be extremely uncomfortable. Buy it’s quick and we get nothing short of embodied freedom on the other side of this portal.
So let’s do this.
But wait… what exactly is this?
In summary, we are short fused and insecure right now. These hard feelings are the doorways to embodiment. And what do I mean by that…well…I’m not there yet but I’ve seen it and believe and expect it…it means peace. It means we don’t abandon ourselves. It means we don’t melt with other people’s energy fields any longer.
I started a journey back in 2017 that had me healing The Mother wound. I learned to prioritize my alignment to my Self. I embodied this alignment. I never leave it. I can’t…its been encoded into my cellular structure. Now is the time of the Father embodiment. This is the discipline to not leak our energy for others. To not fuse to other people’s energy. To keep our energy to ourselves. It’s discipline, protection and boundaries.
If we give ourselves the safe container to vibrate in (masculine) and let our power burn bright (feminine) then we go to the next level of this ascension. We begin to co-create and manifest the new earth in coherence.
We have accomplished more in this lifetime than any being on any dimensional level thought possible. We have exceeded all expectations. Let’s keep this in mind as we face this daunting challenge.
The best way through this for me has been to go limp and feel all the feelings as them come up…to try to react as little as possible (I did NOT get a good grade in this these past weeks…so be gentle with yourself) and sit in the discomfort. On the penultimate eve of the Eclipse I dreamed of falling into cement mud and dying. This is the death of part of our identity structure. It’s painful…it’s been serving humanity in our cellular memory and in our mental landscape through thousands of years of survival. On behalf of humanity and all future generations we may let this officially outdated program of our personality go and enter into THRIVING. Last night I dreamed of clear swamp water with beautiful green water plants. We’re doing great.
At my hardest moments I would tap my chest and say out loud:
“I am wanted”
“________ has access to everything they need in this moment”
“their emotions are not my responsibility”
“my emotions are not their responsibility”
Over and over, each time I was frustrated and despairing. I repeated this and let it sink into my cells.
If you’re after personal insights into this Eclipse then look to where the current Sun (25 degrees Taurus) & Moon (25 degrees Scorpio) are currently sitting your chart. Take note that the Sun is also conjunct Eros and the North Node (humanities current soul path). Eros represents universal love as a verb. When we think of love we often think of a static state of unconditional love. But nothing in the universe is static. The universal law is evolution. Eros is desire. Out His-story has turned Eros into a story of lust. Lust is a side-rail of desire. It is an unfulfilled back eddy of desire. True, flowing desire is the deepest longing of our heart in alignment with the truth of who we truly are. So Now…if we have the courage and discipline to hold our energy field sacred and keep it to ourselves (masculine), we can then listen to the soft sound of our deepest desires (feminine) and create the higher dimensional Earth that is coming online with every resonant thought we have and act we take from this zero-point field.
Let these longings whisper to you and guide your feelings. Don’t act on them yet. Only hear them. They may simply be leading us to deeper feelings. This is not time to act. It is time to reveal. The South Node conjunct the Moon is bringing up our wounds related to the masculine since the beginning of our cellular memories. It is showing us (IN FEELING FIRST) every time we have trespassed into someone else’s field or abandoned ours and let someone else steer our ship from our field. We are learning to emanate from the zero point. We are all connected here through the morphogenic field and our energies connect to it. We can stay put in our lane and effect the multiverse from here. We can be one and One at the same “time”. This is our birthright.
Thankfully I didn’t have to go through this without my dear friend Jae Lazar. Many of the words in this post are echos of the discussions we have had over the past weeks. Her council was instrumental at my darkest hours. I encourage anyone struggling right now to reach out to her for hourly over-the-phone coaching. She is the only person I know personally who has reached the embodiment phase our current courses are set for. There are those of you that go first to create the templates for us to upload and Jae has done this deep work:
jaelazar@icloud.com
As far as astrology goes…My Sun and Moon are in the Taurus/Scorpio axis that this Eclipse is rocking. My theme has been re-wiring out of co-dependency. I am learning effectively and am here to offer insights into where this is landing in your chart.
I love this process deeply as well as all of you who are dedicated to moving through this process. I love and thank our ancestors who set this work up for us over lifetimes. We are the living manifestation of their wildest dreams.
Remember…We God this!
In love & desire,
Deanna