When I experienced a spontainious healing years ago now, I became obsessed with re-creating the miracle for myself and others. I found the same door I had ‘accidentally’ walked through that morning when I had a Past Life Regression Hypnotherapy Session with Chis Lee. Chris became my teacher and I spent many hours in session and learning from his mastery. This door is the gateway to our heart. It is a 432 Herts frequency that when entered into coherence with creates a specific, measurable brainwave patterning called Gamma.
When I was ‘under’ with Chris I would be listening to music that his wonderful wife had made specifically tuned to this frequency.
When we put headphones on and listen to this music…and when I say listen I mean to ACTIVELY listen…it acts as a zip-line into our heart. This heart space is the portal to the dimension of our subconscious.
From this space we are outside of linear time. Our expansive awareness remembers and stores every moment. Our conscious mind is like a bucket that pulls from this infinite well. It is a program that can’t possibly contain it all. That’s why we can’t find our keys sometime. We weren’t present when we put them down. Or why we can figure out or remember something after a good night’s sleep. We’ve directed our bucket to go back into the subconscious and pull the information back up.
But we don’t have to rely on sleep and dreams to re-member these moments and part of our Selves. We can direct our conscious minds into the backseat and allow our subconscious to get in the drives seat. We do this by simply allowing it. You see, the conscious mind is the tip of the iceberg, the subconscious is 10,000 times bigger and ineffably more powerful. It is connected to the All. This is how hypnosis works. It is not allowing someone else to control your mind to plant seeds of suggestion…it is leveraging the confidence and belief of the practitioner to pull the subconscious forward while you consciously navigate this miraculous space.
We have been told to meditate more. And we have told that meditating means emptying the mind so promote stillness and silence. This is awesome. This is also how we enter the heart where our subconscious can communicate with us. So when, in stillness, I would get an inner vision of a dragon’s foot stepping in from of me accompanied by the feeling of a long lost and dear friend, I used to think that it was my ‘monkey mind’ getting in the way and ruining things. I would judge myself, mentally sweep away my undisiplined distraction, and get back to silence as quick as I could. What I came to realize is that that dragon is dear to me, his name is Drocore and he has been carrying me on dimentional adventures my whole life. Now when he shows up I hop on and trust him to take me to where I need to go, see what I need to see and meet with who I need to meet. Some days I meditate. Some days I journey.
We all knew how to do this once. It was called daydreaming. Every child innately holds this superpower to traverse the subconscious world. It is the place with all the answers we seek. Who are we? Where did we come from? What are we doing here? What is the most relevant thing for me to know in this moment? And our subconscious shows us this wisdom in feelings first and then images. Sometimes the images are more like knowing then they are actually visual like a screen behind your eyes. It’s individual.
Do you want to know what your’s is like? In a moment…but not yet…I want you to close your eyes for a few moments and take 3 long, slow breath. Then I want you to picture a juicy, yellow lemon. I want you to put it on a cutting board and then I want you to cut it into little pieces. Okay GO.
Hi again…now…what was the cutting board made out of? What colour was the handle of the knife you used. This is what your daydreaming is like. Did you see it? Did you sense it? This is the language of your subconscious.
When it comes to your daydreams, the biggest question is this: Are you just making it up? And the answer is very simply: It doesn’t matter. It’s you showing you what is in your best interest. And how do you know it’s what’s best? Because if came from going in through your heart. So when I’m deep in and a scary ass demon man shows up…I know it’s for a reason. And I know I can handle it because I brought me here. You know how you slay your demons? You listen to what they have to say. And you love them and you tell them who is boss. They often have something deep and repressed to tell us and they can’t survive in the great presence of love. So they fuck off, never to return. You claimed who you are by your loving presence and they’ll never come back. This brings us to why it’s ‘hard’ to drop into this space as adults:
1) Our conscious mind is directed primarily by our ego in it’s busy (beta) state. Our ego doesn’t want us to navigate consciously in our subconscious because this dimension is ‘unknown’ and our Ego main job is to keep us safe. This is why our nervous systems by adulthood are often frayed. It’s our ego trying to protect us and sending us into flight, fight, freeze and appease at every little treat that feels like a time when we were emotionally or physically hurt in the past. Our subconscious may feel unsafe to our ego but it’s the only place where we can recondition our nervous system to allow us to be more wholly present in our lives. Which is what freedom is.
2) Marvel movies. DC movies. Fantasy movies. They speak the language of our subconscious and sell it to us as a distraction. When my clients encounter an archetypal or mythological image at the beginning of our session, the first thing their conscious mind often says is, “I’m just making this up.” The most powerful moment I ever had in session presented in a scene where I was the cartoon scary witch from Snow White and the Seven Dwarves. I thought, “this is stupid…I obviously wasn’t a cartoon in a past life.” and I almost turned my mind away from it. But my teacher encouraged me to go on. I followed the stream of thought and came back to the witch. My subconscious showed me that she was old, powerful, bitter, bent, and weary. It did all of this by presenting it to me in an archetype. Our subconscious is brilliant. Once I acknowledged this personality profile and felt it, the cartoon witch morphed in my mind into a frail, old woman. It was winter and freezing cold. She was outdoors taking shelter in a lean-to by a barn wearing a thick, black, burlap cloak. She was curled up around a pile of cow excrement trying to absorb the heat from if. She was freezing to death and of starvation. She had escaped from a mental institution where she had been held most of her life. She had been captured as a witch and they had experimented on her horribly. They kept her in solitary confinement the rest of the time. She knew she would die soon and she didn’t want to die in that place. So she escaped. Now she would die alone, frozen and covered in filth. There was a house nearby with smoke coming out the chimney. She could hear their voices and laughter off in the distance. But she pulled her cloak around her tighter. The original inquiry that led to this ‘life’ was why I am only comfortable wearing black. So at this point in the ‘life’ my teacher asked why I was clinging to my black cloak. I started to cry and said that I was hiding. He asked if this feeling was familiar in my current life. I said yes. He asked me why she (I) was hiding. Because she was powerful and people could sense it and it wasn’t safe. I knew that she didn’t want to hide any more. That she wanted to go to the house and be safe to die warm and seen. I realized then that she didn’t have any time left…but I did. And I didn’t want to hide anymore. My teacher told me that he wanted me to say, out loud, “I am not going to hide the truth of who I am anymore.” I was scared but I leaned into my teacher’s courage. I said it out loud and when I did, everything changed…but that’s a story for another day.
Now imaging in I missed that inner-opportunity because “I was just making it up”? Imagine if I hadn’t let my subconscious communicate this deep longing to me. I will submit here that I may not have stopped hiding. That I would still be playing small and holding back…every day. What a tragedy not daydreaming would be. Was it real? Was it actually as past life memory? A memory of an ancestor buried in my DNA? A made up story? Either way, it healed a deep place in my heart and led to the greatest adventure of my life.
So go…see what comes up. Don’t be afraid. After all it’s you showing you. There’s no drugs, nothing influencing you. Just you. Just your heart.
This personally curated playlist is for you. Use it…headphones on, eye masks help. Lay down. Give yourself space to not be interrupted and just listen. Slow down deeper and deeper. Big deep breaths. Picture stairs…tell yourself that every step you take will take you deeper. When you get to the bottom tell your subconscious to take you to the most relevant time and the most relevant place. Tell it in your inner voice. Then wait. Wait for the wisps…life smoke…feelings and tiny descriptions. Say the descriptions in your mind. “Shoelace”, “sand”, “dry”, “desert”, “leather”, “saddle”, “scratch marks”, etc. Do this for longer than you think you need to. Your mind you try to rush it and ‘figure it out’…go back to describing. Go back to the music. Listen and describe. Wait until you can feel it…the story…it’s like a thread pulling a bunch of beads together. Pick up the thread and watch it unfold. anytime you get distracted go back to the music.
Happy adventuring.
Love,
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Song Keys:
The first two songs are initiating and encoded to the feminine principle. We all have a balance of masculine and feminine. Our world’s societal structure is geared to the masculine and the heart portal is keyed to the feminine. These songs initiate the way.
When you know that something big has to come up to be revealed or quested through…this song is heavy duty hauler:
Sunshine (Adagio in D Minor) - John Murphy
When you’ve integrated a big moment and your heart wants to celebrate what you’ve brought online:
Return to Innocence - Enigma
Flowers of the Forest - Mike Oldfield
When you need an Inner Child healing hug:
The Park Is Closed - Michael Giacchino
I am always adding new song. If you have suggestions please let me know!
